I don't have to lie anymore

Well, okay maybe deceive people by being super vague, but it sure felt like lying. Now that time is over. We have accepted a referral for a 16 month old boy!! We are thrilled. We actually got "the call" two weeks ago (hence the lying), but we have been praying and working to have his medical records reviewed. We had our final questions answered today, so we called our agency and told them it was a yes. This whole thing has been surreal. Our dossier was in Russia for just about a week when we got our referral. I was totally unprepared and I still feel pretty unprepared. JJ has been much more calm, at least on the outside. He has been praying about the timing of our adoption and he felt peace about how quickly things were happened. I was caught totally off guard. Our agency actually called as we were driving home from the appointment to have our fingerprints taken. I thought I was going to pass out or throw up or maybe both. I have had two weeks to adjust, but I am still in some emotional upheaval. How will we make this work in three weeks? Oh yeah, we travel January 18th. We are going to Kotlas in the far north west. We have quite a bit of money to find from some place to get us to Russia. Once again, I just did not think things would move this quickly. I haven't even applied for grants. So, we will reach out to our family and our community and trust that God doesn't leave you hanging if this is His idea from the beginning. We are taking a giant leap of faith, because we really want to bring this little guy home.